I recently started listening to the Mental Illness Happy Hour, a podcast I referred to in my previous post, and discovered a section towards the end that really got me thinking. The host invites the guest, as well as others, to admit their fears and loves. He starts by reading out all the things people fear, some comedic and others tragic, and then follows it by reading out all the wonderful things people love. For example, one of the fears that really resonated with me was, "I'm afraid my elbow skin will become so wrinkly they will resemble an old man's scrotum." I wholeheartedly sympathise with the woman who said this, and it's a fear that becomes more real with each passing day.
Anyway, I then started thinking... what am I afraid of? Spiders aside, what am I really afraid of. And what do I really love in this life? I could have gone on for hours and in fact I did, so I've limited myself to create a top five of each. And, because I like to have a blog post that's interrupted by pictures, I've decided to add some carefully selected pictures from my Pinterest boards that in some way link to fear and love. I've tried to be as honest as I can be and, warning, they're quite serious.
- I'm afraid I'm not intelligent enough to keep my boyfriend happy into old age
- I'm afraid I will soon reach an age where I have lost the ability to fight fibromyalgia
- I'm afraid I will always compare my life to the lives of others
- I'm afraid I will die horifically, and before my parents die
- I'm afraid my decision to never have children will haunt me in my old age when I'm lonely and alone.
- I love it when I see old people holding hands
- I love it when my cat rests her body carefully along the windowsill with one leg hanging awkwardly over the radiator, just so she can feel hot air on her bum
- I love it when I get along with my sister
- I love it when I look at my boyfriend and feel complete love and trust
- I love it when I see a bad photo of someone and they still look truly beautiful.